I miss that girl

that girl is not you, but it is my lover miss fieza... i miss so much la..nak die.. mane die..walaupon aku dah tak bersame lagi ngan die..tp kenape perlu camni..

orang selalu cakap...lame2 ok la tu.. buto pak hang!!!!!!!

makin lame, makin sedih aku di buat nya.. ternyata aku tak boleh hidop tanpe die..
tp adekah die boleh hidop tanpa aku?? allah jer tahu

aku sunyi dan sedih..hari2 nak nanges jer..Nua nanges sebab pompuan?? laen macam tu...
aku nk hidop mcm dulu..die selalu ade ngan aku.. aku susah die ade..aku senang die ade... tp kenape sekarang tak boleh...kanape?
jahat sangat ker aku nie?? aku taw aku byk sgt wat salah,
tp bagi la aku PELUANG sekali lagi..
die mesti ade dalam hidop aku..bagi la aku peluang bersame die kembali..
jika aku ade buat salah, aku merayu supaye dia maafkn aku..
if dia ade wat salah, aku dah lame maafkan dia.. sbb aku sayang dia..
aku cinta dia sepenuh hati aku. sumpah demi allah..

aku bukan nk carik salah sape2..sbb bende tu bkn dapat selesai kan masalah pon..
tp jadikan lagi terok ade lah.. yang dah lepas tu..lepas la.. tak gune ungkit bende2 buruk ag..

kite buat baru..yang lebih baek dan lebih difahami..
kenape die benci aku sangat?? adekah selame aku beri sepenuh cinte aku kt die...
cinte aku bertepuk sebelah tangan jer?????? aku tak caye!!!!!

maybe kalo btol la..aku nk bunoh diri!!! sies aku xtpu..
tapi aku rase tak kot..sebab bukan manusia la kalo camtu.. xkan la die game aku..
kejam betol camtu.. patot kene panah petir kalo org sanggup buat camtu..mmg kene laknat ar ngan allah..

mulai saat nie..aku akan kejar die..aku nk bersame die balek..
tiade ape yg mustahil..

maybe ade samting die wat camni kt aku..
keliru ker?? xpe2.. aku tetap sayang die.. aku sanggup tunggu die sampai aku mati..
bia la xkawen ker... ape ade hal.. kalo aku kawen pon, aku kawen ngan fieza gak.. amin.. perasan ar nua nie..

kalo la die bace blog nie...

ade msg aku nk bg die

"fieza, saye x boleh hidop tanpe awak..rase cam x bermakne jer hidop nie.. saye perlu awak.. saye cintakn awak.. saye sayang awak.. saye merayu kt awak, saye nk bersame balek same awak.. kite lupe kan yg dlu..kite buat baru.. saye berjanji takkan saket kan hati awak lagi..sumpah demi allah... pasal kelemahan saye, saye cube baiki..saye janji.. saye merayu.. bagi la sekali lagi peluang kt saye...saye merayu.. mcm mane saye nk hidop kalo awak xde... saye sunyi fieza...xde sape teman saye.. saye nak awak jd teman hidop saye..saye merayu kt awak...saye sayang awak....saye cintekn awak fieza...."

harap die bace la....
And we'll fight and we fight and we fight
I say im sorry and i hope you take
And we'll fight and we fight and we fight
i was wrong and you were right

And I would give anything I own
I'd give up my life, my heart, my home
I would give everything I own
Just to have you back again fieza, i really miss u... i need u now...

Tahun Baru , Azam Baru, Rambut Baru

Semalam aku mengambil keputusan memotong lagi rambut ku panjang tu.. aku rase rambot tu mmg bawak byk bala..sies xtpu.. mcm2 da terjadi.. so aku bernazar kalo aku potong rambut tu allah kembali kn Happiness aku kembali.. heheheheeheh..

dalam pkul 11 pagi cmtu, aku bersame abang aku pergi ke kajang. abg aku nie potong rmbot msti kt saloon.orang kaye kate kn.. aku cadang nk mamak jer..saje teman die.. saloon tu kt dpn MCD kajang.sampai2 kitorang kne tggu..ramai orang la.. tgok kt banner dpn CUT RM9.90 ermm..alang2 aku gunting kt cni jer la.. nk merase gak saloon..hahahah

time turn aku, die tanye "maw cut camna?" "kasi pendek jer la" perrrgghh... die gunting mmg terbaek la..cepat la shial!!! tp..time nk bayar..aku di kejot kn dgr bayaran yg dikenekn.. abg aku rm10 jer..tp aku rm20!! maderfaker la.. sbb aku rambot panjang sgt kot.. siot jer.. tp abg aku nie ttbe jd baik.. die kate "ko bayar rm10 jer" yesss!! abg aku banje aku rm10 la.. hahahah tengs2..

patu balek umah..aku nk g klcc..nk beli bunge.. aku nk bg fieza la..sbb 29 tu anniversary kitorang kalau la kitorang bersame lagi.. aku nie syok sendri kan?? nie ade gamba2 aku jd model Emean..hahahahah cute x aku?

Dirty Little Secret

aaarrrggghhh...
lame x update blog nie..
rindu pulak nk mengarang dan aku rindu GF aku yg pertame tu.. xtaw la..aku rase aku still nk die..nk jgak
sori la..lately, aku ade byk msalah la..
so xde mase nk updated..

antara masalah nye:
1. Kesihatan
2.Studies
3.Personal
4.Mental
5.Makian dan cemuhan

mule2 aku igt aku ni dah x layak nk hidop kt dunia nie..
aku putus ase sbb bnde2 nie..
lepas satu..satu.. bertubi2 kene uji ngan allah..
aku taw aku nie hamba yg kudus di sisi allah.. tu psal die uji aku..
1st time dlm hidop aku kene ujian cmni.. UJIAN HIDUP..
hanye aku ngan allah jer taw..
perit.......sakit.... diri aku..sikit pon allah x bg aku happy mcm korang..
siries. aku mcm nk bunuh diri.. kenape allah kejam sgt wat cmni kat aku??
korang sume langsong xnk amek taw psal aku..ade la..sesetengah org yg care psal aku..
trime kaseh la..
time tuu aku hampir mengKAFIRkn diri aku..
hampir2 la.. sbb aku tekanan sgt.. mcm allah x kesah psal aku..

TAPI..................................................

(bersambong)

I need it urgently

my eyes getting more worst right now...
all my pillow are getting to wet to use it...
it flow just like rain when night comes, sleep time...
i gotta secret, i cant sleep at night..
are this "disease" ??? Chronic Disease ???

Maybe... i can feel it right now..
it so hurt guys..
"can it get the medicine doctor?"
the only one thing that can treat or recover this disease is the good thing or activity that i do before this disease come to me.

i must search this medicine right now..it's urgent thing!!
god, help me to find this medicine..please listen to my prayer..
please god, how long i'm gonna suffer this thing..
i needed her for my life.. i'm not joking god..
please make this thing just like before, the happiess moment in my life..
please forgive me god, i know i do many faulty and evil thing before this..
please forgive me my greatest god.. can you give back my happiness thing to me..
i swear to you god, if you gimme that thing back, i will do more GOD order or command..
i swear god.. i will be a good slave for you and a good human to human..
i swear god..

I need Noorhafiza

plissssssss...i need her now!!

“I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out.And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart.And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you.But those words may forver stay in my heart-locked inside.Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.”

This Song For The Love One

Video nie aku tujukn kt org yg paling aku syg n still aku syg kt die smpai sekarang..maybe smpai mati...
aku mengaku aku still hope kitorang dapat bersame semule..
My love, this video for you..


Tekan cni nk tgok video
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KT6EBGuoGAA

my love, i truly needed you in my life.

about the chemistry, it would happen naturally..